Smeggggggg!
So I’m 15 now. (Have been since about September). Is it odd for a 15 year old to feel old? I feel old. I don’t want to grow up, actually, I do. I just want it to stop when I’m 18 so I can finally buy booze or decent things that you can only buy when you’re above 18.
As I’m 15 I can legally get a job now, so I’m getting a job. A lot of people are shocked by this, “omg no wai u 2 young”. Oh, go away with that too young bullshit. Just, don’t even start it. A lot of people have asked ‘Why?’ and well I’ll start with the obvious of, “I like money” and “Because I can”. I mean, why wait three more years when I’m 18+ to finally go out into the world to earn a living? Now is about as good as any other time really, in fact, now is better as I don’t have to pay rent.
Then the question remains of my education. Well, when I’m 16+ I do plan to make a trip to New york and get this GED (General Educational Development) thing done, letting the world know I’ve passed high school and what have you. I honestly don’t think papers matter that much nor do I think getting the GED will prove anything to my employer. It’s more along the lines of getting the GED to give me some closure of, “Yeah, I passed highschool without even going to it….next.” more than anything else.
But I wouldn’t classify that as education really, there’s nothing in the GED book that will grant me grand value in my life. I think people expect me to go to college at some point. I don’t have plans for it, I mean, unless I change in ‘wanting to become a web designer’ to ‘wanting to become a doctor’ then I don’t have any plans for it. You honestly don’t need a degree saying you know how to do amazing web design skills, you need a portfolio.
Man, I have so much I want to write about.
I want to learn more about physics, math, science, and binary just as a hobby. I want to do a lot of things, but I don’t know where to start. I want to make more clothes, I also want to start adding electronics in my clothing. I want to dress like it’s the future. It’s the 21th century, the century where flying cars should exist, where people get animal implants and benefits from that gene, cybernetic eyeballs that can see in another dimension without the brain going in split directions, the century where the blind aren’t blind, and where the deaf aren’t deaf. But this is the century, much like many others, where it’s a chore to even get out of bed – much less think of the future. Granted, technology has been moving a lot faster than previous centuries and it keeps increasing, but from all those sci-fi books that said this will happen in the future around this time period – and how it hasn’t – is damn depressing.
Just, when I’m out and about, I don’t really see the future in my generation, I see the same multiple clones. I see people who will work at a job and improve the company’s status, maybe they’ll change something, but they most likely will make it the same as it is now.
Grah, people were talking to me, now I lost my train of thought.
In a way, I want to get a job, but at the same time I feel like I’m missing out on my childhood. Though, at the same time I don’t really care if I’m missing it. The faster I move and become independent the faster I can do my own things without worrying about other people breathing down your back.
So…Plan of attack (roughly):
- Apply for jobs. Call center jobs. English speaking related jobs.
- Once gotten a job, start working on learning the basics of html, css, ect for web design.
- Test out what I’ve learned by making my own website. Probably afterwork hours.
- Start making clothes again during afterwork hours.
- Start drawing/coloring/sketching things again. I forget how much I enjoy to do it. Probably during the day/at work.
- Start reading again every day, probably best at night after work.
- Write more, I will write more, I also enjoy doing that.
- Learn binary.
- Must FINISH the books I have started
- Read more books in regards to physics, math, science, history when done with the long list of unfinished books.
- Blurh, I forget about calculating keeping up with friendships into this.
- Practice shooting.
- Learn some material art.
- Stop sleeping.
There’s never enough time in the day, is there?
